I have a confession to make. I have spent a large portion of my life winging it.
I never learned C. I was never a "real" programmer in the way the textbooks define it. I started as a script kiddie, messing with copied exploits and patched-together code that I barely understood. I was obsessed with breaking things, not because I was a genius, but because I was curious about how systems behaved when they were pushed to the edge.
That curiosity dragged me into hacking forums and underground IRC groups where everyone pretended to be smarter than they were. In those rooms, "fake it till you make it" wasn't a motivational quote on a Pinterest board; it was survival. Somewhere in that chaos, I built a persona. People began to see me as an expert because I could solve problems faster than others. Not because I was brilliant, but because I did not stop until the shit worked.
I enjoyed that temporary high of being seen as someone who knew things. But deep inside, I always knew I was learning on the fly. I was never ahead of the curve; I was always slightly behind, staying awake just long enough to catch up.
This pattern followed me through every chapter of my life. I started a web agency without an MBA or a roadmap. I had no clue what a P&L statement was, but I shipped websites. I built products. I attracted clients. I tasted early wins, and those small wins kept me in motion for years. Then came crypto. I got in before it was mainstream, got wrecked, made money, made more mistakes, and stayed long enough to understand the game. Suddenly, people looked at me like a "crypto genius." They thought I was born with this knowledge. They didn’t see the ten hours of messy searching and doubting behind every confident answer.
Here is the truth: The world does not reward qualifications. The world rewards momentum.
Part I: The Scam of Early Success
There is a dangerous myth we sell to the youth: that the goal is to "make it" as early as possible. We idolize the 22-year-old millionaire and the teenage founder. I know this myth well because I lived it.
I secured a government contract at 21. I was a top hacker, a student entrepreneur, and I felt invincible. When you find yourself miles ahead of your peers at that age, you start to believe your own press. You think you are hardworking; you think you are intelligent; you think you’ve cracked the code of the universe.
But early success is often a scam. It builds a fragile ego that hasn't been tested by the fire of sustained failure. When I eventually lost it all within two years - when the hacking stopped, the community dissolved, and the money vanished - I didn't just lose my career. I lost my identity.
When you fall from that height, you find yourself in a darkness you aren't prepared for. You can't accept a lower-paying job because your ego won't let you. You can't admit you don't have a "real" skill because you've been called a genius for so long. You start blaming luck. You start losing hope. You sit on a treasure of free education in the AI age, yet you can't pick up a tool and move because the "icebreaker moment" isn't ringing.
I had to learn that success is not a destination you reach and then park your car. It is a byproduct of refusing to stop. If you feel unqualified right now, good. If you feel like an ordinary guy, perfect. The so-called "unstoppable" people are just ordinary people who refused to stop when they still sucked.
Part II: The Rat Race and The Handlers
We often ask about "race" while we are still in the race. We argue about black or white, this religion or that sect. But from a bird’s eye view, we are all just rats looking for breadcrumbs.
The "Handlers" - the systems, the platforms, the gatekeepers - make sure they eat the good food while we race against each other. They build the platforms for us to fight on. They enjoy the show while we lose our lives every day to comparison. We think our specific "race" is important, but when money speaks, race takes a back seat. All we see is how to get ahead.
The only race that actually matters is the one where you make enough money to get out of the race. This isn't about greed; it's about liberation. Most people use money to amplify their ego. They buy the Lambo to prove their existence to a hollow society. But the true purpose of money is to enable self-discovery. It is a tool to buy back your time so you can figure out the work that puts you in a state of "thoughtless joy."
If your wealth doesn't enable you to connect with your core, those numbers - millions, billions - are useless. You must kill the "thief of comparison" before you can truly be free. Otherwise, you’re just a wealthy rat in a slightly more expensive cage.
Part III: The Two Mountains
I’ve come to realize that life is a journey across two mountains.
The First Mountain is the one we are all told to climb. It’s the mountain of material desire, career, fame, and social validation. We spend our 20s and 30s hiking up this peak, thinking that the "gold" is at the top. We think that if we just get more - more sex, more drink, more earn, more enjoy - we will finally feel "full."
But a strange thing happens when you get close to the peak. You look around and realize the whole hike wasn't worth it. You feel hollow. You start to suspect that what you thought was gold is just a wrapped, gold-plated stone.
This is the "calling of the soul." It usually happens when there is an emotional void left even after getting measurable success. You feel lost. People might call you mad. You might lose your mind for a few months or years as you go through a mental shift.
In that madness, the divine guides you. You hike down from the first mountain, reset everything, and look across the valley. There, you see the Second Mountain. This mountain isn't visible from the bottom of the first one. It’s the mountain of purpose, of divinity, and of the true self.
I was in the middle of fundraising for a startup, at the peak of my crypto brand, when I got that call. I dropped everything and went to the Himalayas. I walked barefoot, slept on the floor, and survived on fruits. I was a "top creator" one day and a "beggar for peace" the next.
The journey was overwhelming at the start, haunting in the middle, and liberating in the end. It made me realize that you will only connect with the infinite when you stop at the finite.
Part IV: The Science of Flow and the Divine Vessel
How do you find your true calling on this second mountain?
In my experience, it's tied to the "Flow State." The more you explore different careers while observing when you are most deeply involved, the better your chances of meeting your true self. If it is hard to break your concentration through external factors, you are likely doing what you were born for.
Your soul will resist anything else. It will make you return to that specific work again and again, even after tough times. And when you finally realize that you are nothing but a vessel for divine expression, you become detached from the outcome. You stop caring if the article is a "hit" or if the trade makes millions. You care about the honesty of the act.
Sustaining a flow state for just one month can attract more positive change than a year of "grinding" with a distracted mind. When you sustain it for a year, magic starts happening. You move from being a "doer" to being a "witness" to the work God is doing through you.
Part V: The Paradox of Faith
People often ask: "Is it God, or is it me?"
We see people donating millions to temples after their wishes are fulfilled. We see parents praying for health. Is there a divine accountant taking notes? Or is it an illusion?
In the most practical sense, faith kills fear. When you surrender your problems to a higher power, you are released from the psychological barrier of doubt. A toddler can jump from a height if he sees his mother waiting to catch him. He isn't "brave" in a logical sense; he is safe.
Our logical minds can solve problems, but they cannot kill the fear of failure. Logic always wants a specific result, which creates tension. Faith, however, allows you to be satisfied even with a partial result. It provides the clarity to solve a problem because the "ego" isn't clogging the pipes.
The problem arises when we take faith for granted and grow an ego around it. We think our faith made us successful. We start wanting others to suffer while we blossom. That is the ego's trap. God doesn't "save" you from that suffering because it was never God who delivered the result - it was you acting with an open heart, without fear, and with right intention.
When you lose that intention and start seeing yourself as the "sole doer," you find yourself burnt out and dissatisfied, even in the midst of material success.
Part VI: The Raw Truth
I am not enlightened. I struggle with my mind every single day. I lose discipline. I break down. I question everything.
I am a writer, but I don't always feel like a good one. Sometimes I rely on AI to help bring clarity to the chaos of my thoughts. Does that make me less of a writer? I don't care. I care about impact. I care about making people feel something real.
I am a spiritual seeker, but I started as a "sincere beggar." I didn't go to the mountains because I was holy; I went because I was empty. I begged for peace of mind because I couldn't find it in a crypto wallet.
So here is the raw confession: I am an ordinary guy who understands that the only way to become "unstoppable" is to refuse to stop.
Conclusion: The Invitation
If you are reading this and you feel like a fraud, embrace it. If you feel unqualified for the life you want, start anyway. If you are at the peak of your first mountain and you feel hollow, look across the valley.
Success is not about becoming perfect. It is about maintaining momentum until your limitations no longer define you.
Build real skills. Do real work. Stay humble. Make money, but don't let it make you. Perceive life with full awareness. Whether you are hacking a system, trading a coin, or chanting a mantra, do it with the honesty of someone who has nothing left to prove to a hollow society.
The old me is dead. The new me is still being written. And you? Your script is set, but you have to be the one to pick up the pen and keep moving.
Don’t wait for permission. The divine has already given it to you.
Just. Keep. Moving.
